Events and thoughts of the day

I realized today that I haven't drove (driven? I don't know) my car anywhere since Sunday. That's kind of the way it goes when you don't even have enough money to pay your bills. But I had to go to withdraw some money from an atm so I could pay the mortgage, so I figured I'd get some other stuff done while I was out. I went to the university and bought a couple of my text books since my financial aid refund came in yesterday. I also went to Chloe's daycare and found out how much it's going to cost me per week to have both kids at the center: $270 per week. Ouch. So the plan right now is to have Miguel watch them until he goes back to work, which won't be as soon as we'd hoped. But I think it's going to end up working out ok. He'll stay here while I go to school, and I'll just withdraw $250 per week from my financial aid account to pay the bills. As long as he's doing job searches, he'll keep getting his unemployment checks, and between the two, we should finally have enough money to pay the bills AND buy food! And after a couple of months, his old job will open back up, and he can go back to work, and then I can put the girls in daycare. And that way his body should have ample time to recuperate after 8 months of really hard labor.

So here's the other thing I've been thinking about. I'm not going to take any summer classes this year, and I'm about 90% sure that Miguel will be working in another state during the summer, so I'm thinking maybe we could go live with him over the summer. I've been going to church for a while now, and I think that maybe there's a young person in the ward who would be willing to house sit for me while I'm away; perhaps an 18 or 19 year old who wants a little freedom but can't afford an apartment. If I could find a trustworthy person to stay at my house, I would seriously consider taking the girls to live with Miguel wherever he may be at the time.

Speaking of Miguel, he took it upon himself to fix the hole in the fence today. I asked the neighbor last saturday when he was going to fix it, he told me on Monday. Well, it's now Thursday, and, big surprise, they had not lifted a finger to fix the damn fence. So Miguel used what little resources he had at his disposal and put it back up. I'll have to take a picture of it. It's pretty funny, but it gets the job done. Now I can let Chloe roam the back yard with a little less stress.

I was just looking through some older posts and found some comments I hadn't read before. So, to answer my aunt, if I don't use a blow dryer and straightener on my hair, it's a huge mess, just like it was before. But the difference now is that if I actually want to style my hair, it will look good. I've only styled it once since I got it cut. If my natural curl were consistent, maybe I could just let it go, but parts of my hair curl in ringlets, other parts are just wavy, and other parts of my hair are straight. Needless to say, when I just let it air dry, it's a disaster, so I just pull it back in a bun and use barrettes to tame the fly-aways.

One more thought for the evening. Something that's bothered me for the past two years is how unfair it is that someone like me can accidentally get pregnant while in a drunken stupor after being off birth control for only 2 days, when there are so many couples who have planned and gone about having children the responsible way and just can't get pregnant. It's just not fair, and makes me feel terrible. I keep wishing that there were some way I could help those people. Then I realized there is a way. I could be a surrogate mother. Maybe I sound crazy right now, but I've been blessed with the ability to carry pregnancies with no complications and with little to no interruption of my own life. If all I had to do to help a deserving couple have a baby is go through another pregnancy and delivery, I'll do it. I actually enjoy being pregnant, and my deliveries are really quick. Of course I'd only do it if it involved using the gametes of the prospective parents. Otherwise, the couple should just adopt. But this is something I'm seriously considering. Of course, I wouldn't do it any time soon, but perhaps some time in the next 5 years or so. Maybe that's weird, but I just think it would be selfish to me to not even consider it. And if a family member needed my help, I wouldn't even think twice. Of course, considering both my grandmothers had 8 or more children, it's unlikely anyone very close to me would have fertility issues, but you never know. Anyway, I feel better now that I know there is possibly something I can do to help those responsible couples trying to have children. Well, I better get to bed.