Sure enough, I let Leyla cry it out (see previous post). When she started crying again at 7:00, I went in to give her her bottle. Now I know what all the hullabaloo was about at 5:30. She had a massively poopy diaper. And when I changed it, I could tell it had been that way for a while. Now her bum is all red and sore, so I'm letting her walk around naked to try and air it out. Poor little thing. I could have at least walked in her room and checked on her this morning. And I thought about doing that, but then I decided against it since she had woke up and started crying at the exact same time she always wakes up and wants a bottle. Since the timing was right, I just assumed she was crying because she's habituated to waking at that time and getting a bottle. Well, I assumed wrong, and now I feel really bad.
And the irony of it all! Guess where I just found my earplugs? Literally, right under my nose. They were on the floor directly in front of where I was sitting and typing last night.
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Man. Seems like there's always something to make you end up feeling crappy eh? I'm sure Leyla will survive and so will you. Lots of heavy decisions coming up for you in the near future - Not to mention a lot of tests.
Good luck and don't beat yourself up too much. Last I checked there aren't a whole lot of perfect people walking around.
No use beating yourself up. She won't be emotionally scarred, and you were trying to do the best for her with the information you had.
You are working to be the best mom you can.. no one could ask for more.
Oh I'm sorry Kels. I have done the same thing with Carter except for his arm was stuck and that is why he was crying. Your not a bad mom. As a matter of fact from my perspective it looks like you are an amazing mom and your girls love you to pieces. Her little bum will heal and she will be okay...as for her sleeping past 5AM I guess it will take patience that I'm sure God will grant you cause He is good like that.
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