After we got back from a very memorable jog, our neighbor across the street brought the girls over a box of chocolates. You can see them selecting their treats...
And then the aftermath...
Isn't that picture hilarious?? I usually only post flattering pictures of me and the girls, but this was just too funny to pass up. I had to share it.*********************
Today was a bit rough. Not quite as bad as yesterday. My mood swings yesterday were pretty epic. Today I was just down all day. Valentine's day has never gotten to me before. I've always liked it because I love the colors and the idea. So I don't know if it was the holiday that was getting to me or if I'm just depressed. I was hoping that if I got some exercise today, maybe I would start feeling better. And I did notice a little improvement after I went jogging. But it was kind of offset by the physical discomfort of GI problems (I guess I really didn't need to mention that but... it's true). I just don't want to feel like this anymore. But I'm starting counseling this week. I get feeling like this every time I'm single and instead of figuring out what's wrong with me, I just rush into a relationship and let all the happy feelings of being in love cover over all the bad feelings. But eventually, they come back. So this time I need to make sure that I can be happy with just being me. Miguel's not the only one who has issues to work out. I played a big part in the downfall due to my inability to properly communicate. These are things I need to work on and get sorted out before I get into any sort of a relationship, whether it be giving Miguel another chance, or with someone else. Either way, I really need to get my shit together. I think I may know the root of the problem, and I believe I'm finally ready to discuss it with a therapist. I should probably try to get some sleep.
6 comments:
Thanks for the pics! I was missing seeing those girls. I lOVE the crazy wild eyed chocolate covered face and Miss Chloe looks like she is getting ready to start another growth spurt as her face looks a little longer?
I'm sorry it was such a tough day for you yesterday. I hope that the counselor will be able to help you address and understand how to proceed on to a healthy, happy future. Hang in there!
Hang in there, girl! Being a single mom is the HARDEST job in the entire world! Just being single is a hard job! I totally understand the pain. Stay strong.
Love,
Kristin
I want you to know that in working with the adults I did last year, I think you have made the hardest step in your progression...admitting that you need help and are ready for a change. Take it one day at a time, and know you are now headed in the right direction. It will get a little bit easier a little bit at a time. Know that I love you, and think of you often!! Keep on focusing on those beautiful girlies!!
It's a good idea to talk to someone who can help you sort out your emotional problems. You need to love yourself first then you can further love other people. I hope the therapy will work out for you and we love you and support you.
Awwww, those pictures are so cute! Your girls are gorgeous! Valentine's Day is one of those holidays that totally sucks or is really great. I'm sorry you've been having a rough time lately but I know you'll start feeling better soon.
I loved the pictures and I'm excited for you that you get new carpet :) I'm sorry you are having troubles, but it sounds like you are taking the right steps and are on the right track for feeling better. Like everyone else said...I think you are awesome and I will keep you in my prayers!
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