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Let's see, what do I have to talk about today?? Well, I found a name that I really like for little girl number two: Leyla. I guess there's some song with that name in it, but I've never heard of it, so I'm sure by the time my daughters are in school, none of their class mates will have heard of it either. I think it's really pretty sounding and it means night or dark beauty or wine. I like all three things. I looked up Chloe's name, and apparently it means green shoot. I guess that's good because it's always nice to see green shoots come up in spring.

Well, I just talked to Miguel. He's doing good. He also told me about the Eric Clapton Leyla song, so I looked it up on you tube because he assured me I've heard it before. I always thought he was saying "hey love" not Leyla. Anyway, Miguel wasn't nearly as enthusiastic about the name. He still wants something that starts with the "kuh" sound, like Chloe's name. He also was worried about when she's a teenager and having the word "lay" in her name because then the horny boys would reference getting laid, etc. And that's a good point. Stupid teenage boys can turn anything beautiful into a stupid sex joke. I remember in sixth grade, the boys were so bad that I was uncomfortable saying the word pencil. I also remember my teacher sending me out to the hallway with a kid named Clint to "tutor" him. Basically I was supposed to try and make him do his homework, but he just kept drawing boobs on the desk top. I don't know what my teacher was thinking sending me out there with him. He made me really uncomfortable. I was a bit of a prude until my second year in high school. Anyway, back to the topic at hand. I still really like the name, and I may save it for her middle name. That way, if she likes it, she can choose to go by it once she's past the stupid junior high boy phase. That's going to be terrible. I know I'm biased, but if Chloe stays as cute as she is now, I'm going to have a hell of a time with her once she's a teen. Especially since she's my daughter. Everyone has a weakness for something. A lot of people have trouble with alcohol and/or drug addiction, cursing, porn, etc. I've never had a problem staying away from those things, but I have what mormons would call a serious "morality" problem. But I'm honest, and when I'm in a relationship, I'm 100% monogamous. It just gets really out of control when I'm single. Anyway, what I'm trying to say is Chloe may be predispositioned to be "loose". But who knows; just because I'm like that doesn't mean she has to be.

Speaking of cute Chloe and her little sister, I've been really wondering how this little girl's going to turn out. I hope she looks a lot different than Chloe. Reason being- Chloe is just so darn cute, it would be unfortunate if Leyla (which I'll just call her for now) ends up looking a lot like Chloe, but not quite as cute. I hope she gets a characteristic totally different from Chloe, like light color eyes or hair or maybe nice dark skin like her daddy. I know it's a totally superficial and lame thing to be worrying about, but that's what's been on my mind. I guess I'm just afraid that she's going to be compared to Chloe, and honestly, how can anyone compete with that?? I'm sure once she arrives, I'll realize I have nothing to worry about, but I've never had a sister before, so it's not something that I can understand. I always wanted a sister. I was really excited when my mom and step dad got married, because then I got a step-sister, but she lived with her mom, and I hardly ever saw her, and the few times I did get to see her, I was in my nasty teen phase, so I wasn't very sociable. Then again, I'm never very sociable.

Well, my back is killing me. It has been all this week. And today it was so bad that I was laying on the couch and I wanted to get up and move something out of Chloe's way so she could look out the window, but when I went to get up, it just hurt too bad and I couldn't do it. It made me realize that I'm going to need help soon. I'm going to need Miguel to come home. So here's the thing, if anyone is still reading this, and you are a person who prays, will you pray for me? I need to you pray that Miguel's job here will start back up. It stopped because of a dispute between his bosses and the TX Department of Transportation, and as soon as the dispute is resolved, work will resume and Miguel can come home. It's been six months. I need him home soon.

I'm getting hungry and I've got some work to do. I want to get the moulding in my kitchen all installed. Once that's done, I can take all the tools out of the kitchen, and that's a big step. Once I do that, I can take down the baby gate, which is very needed because stepping over that thing is getting really hard and is also messing up my back. Ok, adios.