About a week ago I was looking for a good deal on an ipod shuffle so I can listen to good music while I'm at the gym. I tried a few e-bay auctions unsuccessfully and had decided that once I got outbid on the current auction I was trying, I'd get a refurbished one from apple. Turns out I didn't get outbid, so I had to purchase the one on e-bay. But the seller had a really good ratings and all comments appeared to be very positive. The auction said I was bidding on a "mint condition" ipod. Ok, I think if apple had a "mint" that produced an ipod like the one I got, apple would have gone out of business long ago. It has really deep scratches on one side and visible wear. It also came half full of rap. You know how I love rap. So I'm a little disappointed. I wouldn't mind at all if they had said something to the effect of "may have some cosmetic wear or defects," but I was expecting something in mint condition since that's what they advertised. Oh, and apparently the previous owner was named "fabian". What a name. So now I get to clear all his crap off before I can even figure out how to put my music on it. As for the title of this blog, Jaron warned me about getting an i-pod off e-bay, but it was too late. But apparently it works, so that's all that counts.
Well, my guest bedroom is almost done. I bought a simple, cotton blanket from Target today and some nice striped fabric to cover the bolster pillows that go with the daybed, as well as two really big, soft throw pillows from Joanne fabric. I had a bunch of coupons, so I saved about $26 on everything. And I talked to my friend Ryan today and she has an extra twin mattress that she'll bring over when her husband gets home. All I have to do is cover the bolster pillows with the fabric and get the mattress on the bed! I think I may end up doing my studying in that room since it's free of distractions and that bed's going to be comfy when it's all done.
Speaking of studying, this semester is going to be really hard. I generally think I can do anything, but I'm beginning to doubt I'll be able to handle this semester. I know I won't be able to successfully nurse the new baby and go to school at the same time. That makes me sad because I know that nursing is the best thing I can do for baby, but at the same time, it's kind of a relief, because I HATE nursing. Most mothers seem to say they love the connection and the bonding that comes with it, but I pretty much just felt angry and pissed off every time I nursed Chloe. I will try my best to nurse Leyla, and maybe I can just do it in the evenings so at least she gets a little good milk, but realistically, I won't be able to go to school and exclusively nurse her. I did that for a semester with Chloe, and it required a lot of time sitting in my car between classes with a breast pump. It was a little ridiculous, and I don't have the time this semester. My classes are going to be tough. Three out of the four classes require a presentation as well as a paper. But the good news is that I may not have to miss any tests. All my tests appear to be scheduled for around 9/20 and 10/25, so as long as Leyla is born very close to her due date, I shouldn't have to worry about missing a test. Which is good because I only have one professor who will do make-up exams. And now I'm getting all worried that Leyla won't even know that I'm her mom. She'll probably think her Grandma Mary is mom. But I guess newborns sleep a lot. I don't know. This is going to be really hard.
1 comment:
Ok. Take a deep breath...repeat to yourself. "I do not have to do everything and be everything, to everyone.- I can take one day, hour, or minute at a time and I CAN get through this". You are projecting a long way about a lot of stuff. And Of course your baby is going to know who mom is. She's the stressed out one trying to do everything and be everything :0)
I have every faith in you and your ability to do what needs to be done. Just make sure that you are not trying to do more than needs to be done. Ok, I'll get off the soap box now. I love you!
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