Addiction

I get after Miguel a lot because he has a very addictive personality and he tends to get addicted to things that aren't very good for him (beer, etc.) And then I act like I'm all high and mighty because I don't have a problem with those things. Right. I'm just as bad as he is, but my addiction is not looked down upon quite as much as his. So, what's mt addiction? I love sweets. I did a bad thing and went to the grocery store last night when I was hungry. I did come home with a fair amount of fresh produce, but I also came home with ice cream, chips ahoy, and oreos. I usually limit junk food like that to one item every two to three weeks. If it's not in the house, I'm not going to eat it. However, if it's in the house, I'm going to eat it almost within a matter of minutes. It's like I can't control myself. It's all I can think about. I ate the whole thing of ice cream last night (I don't know what size it was, but it was the one smaller than the half-gallon. Let's just say it was well over 400 calories). And today, I finished off the bag of chips ahoy with no help from Miguel. All I can say is it's a good thing I'm also addicted to exercise.

Speaking of working out, I have been keeping up with my other blog. You know, the secret one. I started the blog as a food/exercise journal. After a few weeks, I dropped the food journal part because I had gotten into the mind set of thinking before eating. Obviously I'm not in the mindset anymore, so I should probably start the food log back up. Anyway, I've been keeping track of my progress. Here's a graph that I keep at the bottom of my exercise blog:It appears as though I've been at this for 15 weeks, and I've lost 12 pounds. I read somewhere that a nursing mother shouldn't lose more than a pound a week, so I guess I'm pretty much on track.

And despite my binging on sweets, overall I am still losing weight, so that's good. I still have a long ways to go though, and school's out in three weeks. That makes me nervous. I'll have to figure out a good way to exercise that includes the girls. I don't know what I'm going to do. I'm afraid I'll do nothing.

However, I'm going to do everything I can to take that class offered in summer session I. If I can take that class, I'll get some of the real life skills I'll need to compete for a job and it also means I won't have to take a crazy-hard class my last semester that won't do me any good. That's right, I was looking at how many credits I still need to graduate, and it turns out that if I don't get in this summer class, I'll have to take Cell Biology or Functional Anatomy my last semester. Those classes are great for med majors, but I have no interest in that. Taking one of those classes will basically just be a big pain in my ass. So I'm going to try to appeal to the financial aid department this week to see if I can get some more loans to cover the cost of daycare in the summer (and I might have to appeal to my father, too). Keep your fingers crossed for me. I really need to take that class.

But the second half of summer is already reserved. I don't know if I told anyone besides my dad yet, but I'm planning on going to the Holmes family reunion. This will be my first Holmes reunion in... honestly I don't even know how long it's been. I wouldn't be surprised if it's been over 10 years. I'm not looking forward to the long drive/airplane ride to get to Idaho, but I am looking forward to seeing family and introducing my sweet little girls to family who have never met them.

It's late, so I have to wrap this up. I have 8:00 class tomorrow.