Yesterday I had to go to a WIC appointment because I don't have any money and I needed the food vouchers. Well, as part of the appointment, they took Leyla's height and weight and plotted it on a chart, just like they do at every well-child exam (which her doctor just did on Tuesday). They also did a finger prick to check her iron level. Turns out she's below the 5th percentile on her weight and has low iron. Wow. I feel like a bit of a failure. I knew she was petite, and her doctor knows that she's really petite, so he wasn't really worried about her weight when we went in on Tuesday. So now I have to make sure that everything she eats has decent iron in it and try to get her to drink more milk. I always buy the lower fat version of foods, and we all eat the same stuff, so I guess I need to start buying the full fat versions for Leyla. I just don't want to get her all loaded up on sugar as well. So hopefully she'll start putting on a little weight soon and won't become anemic.
And today the post office finally stopped forwarding my mail to my mother's house, which is good, but it sucked today because I got my rejection letter from the Parks and Wildlife. Four and a half months after I applied, and two and a half months after my interview. That was a really big let down. And again, I feel like a failure. I never have been able to take rejection well, and this case is no different. And it sucks that their building is basically right next to where I work, so I'm constantly reminded of what I wasn't good enough to get.
So what does that mean? Basically, if I couldn't get that job, there's no way I'll be able to get any other government biology job. I'm going to have to go to grad school. So now I need to start studying to take my GRE. We'll see how things go at work for the next little while, because I could always do an assistantship where I work studying Salicornia (a plant that grows on the beach), which can be used as a biofuel and can also take nasty stuff out of discharge water from shrimp farms. It's actually a pretty intriguing project. I just don't like learning about plants, but who knows, maybe it'll grow on me (no stupid pun intended).
As far as selling the house goes, I've been driving around our neighborhood lately and have noticed quite a few homes up for sale. And they look nice. You can tell someone went in and did some remodeling. Considering the state of the economy and the housing market, I won't be surprised if I can't sell this place. I refuse to take a loss. If it means I have to hang out here for a few years, then so be it. I'm going to use my tax refund to get some new flooring and some paint, and once I get everything looking nice, I'll put it up for sale, but I won't be surprised if I don't have any luck. And if it doesn't sell, at least I'll get to live in a pretty house with no nasty maroon carpet! I've been waiting almost three years for that.
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I have to wonder with the Parks and Wildlife job, if you're not good enough for it, then who is? I think it's more of an indication of the flaws in the interview process. It's really not possible to determine an applicant's future success in a job interview. I doubt the person they hire for the job is actually any better at it than you would be, they just happened to interview better that time... Still sucks though. I guess I may have to deal with being the only one in the family who's not a doctor...
"Not good enough" is quite a dramatic leap in my humble opinion. Perhaps "doesn't currently have all the qualifications they desired" is more appropriate, or "was not the best fit among the applicants". You can't assume the job choice is all based on your interview. (often far from it!)
Ok, while I'm preaching...(:
Get a couple of realtors in to look at your place. They will come for free, give you free advice on whether all your planned fix ups are worth the investment, AND can give you an estimate on the sale-ability of the place.
It would be silly to put all that labor and money in if there is no return.
OK. It WAS Friday the 13th for Pete's Sake! Hopefully today will be better. Though the fact that it is "Single's Awareness Day" could make that a bit more difficult too... I must concur with Hector and Celiac that it is NOT a reflection on you. Though it is hard not to read it that way especially after waiting and hoping for 4 months. I choose to look at it as another path that will lead you to something that will be an even better fit.
I love you my little Valentine. And Give those sweet babies a big hug and kiss from gramma!
You can't let one job you didn't get completely get you down. Hector and celiac are right in their advice so I will say no more. Celiac also had good house advice. Hang in there girl. The right things will happen!!
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